Poetrider

My biggest problem is you I want to Please you A part of me of love you A part of me hate you A part of me need you A part of me fear you I don't think I can handle this right now (Bo Burnham)

Just want to make everyone happy But in the end just dig my own grave Just want to make everyone happy But in the end get everyone angry on me Just want to smile But in the end i got tears Just want to fight But in the end want to give up But can't giving up Try to have a smile even bitter one Try to fight Try to clean the mess Still don't know what will happen Hope the best result Or I will end up in bigger mess  There is still one reason to fight Just one more After that everything is done

Because I was a great liar in the past I can't be trust in the future even i say the truth It's what I have done So, I must live with it I'm Sorry But since the last meet we have I have been truth to you No worry I'll not show my face again even my smell I'll walk away after I've clear all of the problem I've made

Since that day.... Till two years ago I was hoping you'll be back with me To start all over again Share all the happiness and sadness Since that day.... Till one year ago, little by little, piece by piece The memory start become grey Not that clear any more And I was keep moving from one to another heart Since that day.... Till now, i realize something that you are not real for me You are only a past story of my life for me Now.... I already have her She is my sweetest princess i have ever. 'coz she givin all her love for me caring about me all the time Just like you but she done better Without leaving me alone just like you have done Since that day when I've been hurt I learned how to cure the wound And now... The wound has cured It even has no scar Since that day 'till now My life getting better and will be more greater Even I'm not together with you Since that day 'till now or should I say today Just a little lesson of lov...

Dia... Kukenal menjelang dewasa Kukenal di dunia yang baru saja kusinggahi Dia... Perlahan mulai tersenyum Perlahan mulai menarik arahku Perlahan mulai mengetuk akal pikiranku Dia... Tegar bagai karang Rapuh laksana bukit pasir Lembut bagai sutra Tajam laksana pedang Dia... Sembunyikan tangis dalam senyum Tutupi sedih dengan tawa Dia... Berdiri di simpang jalan Tanpa tahu kemana tujuan Namun... Dia lindungi yang lain dari persimpangan Dia bantu tunjukkan arah Dia bimbing dalam sabar Dia... Yang kukenal menjelang dewasa Yang kukenal di dunia yang baru kusinggahi Takkan hilang walau jiwa telah melayang 18 Jan 06, jakarta, hanya untuk kamu

Aku dan Kamu Kamu dan Aku Mencoba menyatu dalam asa dan rasa dalam duka dan suka dalam benci dan cinta dalam amarah dan tabah tapi tidak .... untuk ingkar untuk pengkhianatan Aku dan Kamu Kamu dan Aku mencoba selaras dalam langkah melebur cita dalam cinta membuang buruk demi indah Aku dan Kamu Kamu dan Aku Haruskah mendengar kalimat lain haruskah terusik oleh suara tak berujud yang coba pisahkan kita Aku dan Kamu Kamu dan Aku Tetap lurus dalam janji Bergeming dalam doa Mengharap restu orang tua Aku dan Kamu Kamu dan Aku Selalu berharap Selalu berdoa dan Berusaha Untuk tetap satu Sekarang... dan Selamanya... 18 Jan 2006, jakarta di tengah adzan isya

Adakah rasa ini nyata Adakah rasa ini kiasan Kadang terasa hampa Kadang terasa penuh Namun tanpa ada makna Samakah rasa di sana Seperti rasa di sini

Hitam diam Pikirannnya penuh tanya Serendah itukah dirinya Sehina itukah dirinya Sejelek itukah dirinya Sehingga tak layak di puji Walau hanya sesekali Seburuk itukah sebuah jati diri yang sudah lama melekat Hitam tetap terdiam Diam dalam sepi dan sunyi Namun aku berkata Hitam......... Tanpamu dunia terasa ganjil Tanpamu dunia sungguhtak sempurna Saudaramu mungkin indah Tapi itu ketika aku sedang bekerja Sedang terjaga, tuk mencapai sesuatu Denganmu hitam Aku bisa damai Aku bisa memenuhi segala cita dan rasa Segala bentuk pesona Biarkan mereka hitam Mereka belum merasa Betapa berartinya dirimu bagi mereka Tapi aku bersamamu sampai mereka terjaga dari lupanya (jakarta, 24/11/05, dikala hitam sudah bersamaku)

Letih Jiwa dalam jaga Mengingat kau di sana Terkatup mata dalam jaga Membayangkan wajahmu di sana Debar jantung terasa melambat Karena cintamu yang erat merekat Tawa lemah kulepaskan Sekedar melepas rindu yang tertahan Remuk redam jiwa terasa Membayangkan dirimu sendiri di sana Rinduku kian terasa Ketika tak juga menyapa Ketika kau tak kunjung juga berkata Bahwa kau juga sama ps: khusus tuk kk ku inikah yang kk rasakan saat ini??

Adakah kasih masih tersenyum Adakah asa tetap tertawa Adakah sedih di air mata Lihatlah Bulan masih saja tersenyum Walau langit tiada bersinar Lihatlah sang bintang masih berkelip Genit menggoda jiwa Wahai jiwa Mengapa menyendiri Wahai mata Mengapa berair Tidakkah kau rasa Sejuknya hembusan sang bayu Hembusan penenang jiwa Wahai jiwa Mengapa pasrah Tidakkah kau lihat Tiada lagi sang amarah Wahai jiwa Rindumu terasa Dadamu penuh sesak Adakah kasih masih tersenyum Adakah asa tetap tertawa Adakah sedih di air mata

Love Come easily just like a gift from santa But can also gone like an evil Lefting us with a broken heart Well angel We always need love Eventhough it will hurt us easily Don't be cry Or u wanna be at my shoulder Angel U just need a little patient 'Coz if u in hurry u'll take the poison U don't want it, do you angel Angel Let light up the world with smile Let them burn it with war We can repair it with our love Our true love Angel Don't get this love wrong It's not about soulmate It's just about love Angel Let's keep stand tough We 'll make it better Angel Don't cry We are here Me, Brother, Sister, Friends, Son, Daughter, Grandpa, Grandma, Mom, Dad Well everyone is here No more tears honey Let's smile And spread our love to the whole world So they can smile to Angel We Love You

Ketika hidup berkejaran Ketika asa saling berlarian Sang Bunda terdiam Bingung akan tindakan Bingung akan jalan Sang Bunda terdiam Dan terus terdiam Walau air mata tak menetes Walau tangis tak terdengar Walau diam Sang bunda mulai bergerak Menghukum dengan senyum Menghukum dengan kasih Menghukum sang buah hati Buah hati yang terus melukainya Buah hati yang selalu disayanginya Buah hati yang selalu dipanggil dengan kasih Buah hati yang bernama MANUSIA

And there goes some lover Go away far from the crowd And i'm standing here Just like a fool who try to kill all of them Jealously Come straight into my heart And put all of my power out It seems no use trying becoming a hero It better for me to become a fool Really fool or they called as a dumb Cry That not my type Not at all It useless Very Don’t ask why ‘coz I don’t know Desperate It’s my very best friend I’m standing alone But I think its better then trying to fooling everyone To show them how best I am This heart beating up just to wait the time The time to go to see my lord Hope He will have a little love for me to live with Him Even it so little I’ll be happy Hey world Thanks For everything even though it’s hurt Even though I have to crawl every time Thank for let me be the one of u BYE ALL

Run in the dark Walk in the light Dog do bark When he want fight When human go nuts They always get their guts When they don’t do nuts They lost their guts What insanity So why we pretend to do the other way Just follow your way You’ll find the real one Love, dead, friends and live Don’t cry for a little torture Laugh for it Then it will go away When you smile The world become better When you cry Your soul become great But when you mumbling They become darker Darker And scary Just smile And everything will come near you Bring the happiness Not the sadness Get other sadness From peoples Then switch it with happiness For peoples Mother will love you more then others ‘coz she is the greatest one ‘coz she is the mother of we all She is the mother of nature Our beloved lover And our true friends Don’t betrayed on her That’s all folks C’ ya in another chance